Adrenal gland poem

Turns out

It was my ADRENAL GLAND all along

That FEAR spot, somewhere near my stomach

pumping too much

FIGHT or FLIGHT problem-juice
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adrenal_gland

I've had all my life

this problem

I'd like to blame my parents but they are gone
and empty

so it doesn't matter anymore
it's still this problem

I have to solve

I'm too excited (FEAR) about
life and find myself killing it
on a daily basis because

it's also LIFE that I find so hard
to take, find it hard to live
I guess

it's an old slow way to DIE
that many have done before me
family members included

*sigh*

but I may be quicker
because I do it more intensely
and there is this known fact about how
women metabolize alcohol differently

I used to think that was about me
being bleery-eyed at midnight and others still
standing
but now as I get older I think

it could be about long-term effects
and how we handle it in
our bodies

Oh God, I'm so afraid
I just want peace and safety
and to be home finally